All your signals were mixed
and I paid too much attention
to all the ones
Re-reading this, it sounds more sad than intended. It’s more fact-of-the-matter. There’s no regret. Just understanding.
I saw her ankles first–
thin and strong
rolled jeans and
Red, curled hair,
not natural in color,
but beautiful and effortless all the same.
Cool and stolid,
leather and cotton,
I wish to present to the world
I don’t come close
I’m constantly afraid
I’ll bore you.
I’m afraid I’m a terrible conversationalist and that you’ll find me shallow and vapid. I’m afraid of saying all the wrong things and scaring you away.
It’s so sweet that
you were nervous.
I was too.
I like knowing that, you too, feel
there is something
Long story short:
the sun will set,
there will be dark and
silence and separation.
it will come again,
and time will be yours
I remember seeing a phrase in a catalog when I was younger, etched into a bracelet, and it has stuck with me since:
I don’t know if it’s from anything specifically, a movie, book, or TV show, but it resonates with me a lot.
I always wanted to have a physical reminder of it, but haven’t actually seen it anywhere since that catalog. I also wasn’t so sure I’d want it on a bracelet anyway (I rarely wear them – let my arms be FREE), or on a t-shirt (I can’t wear the same shirt every day), or anything at all really. But it occurs to me, that something that holds so much meaning for me – and has done for years – could make a really great tattoo.
Just a thought. I love tattoos and have always wanted one.
This might not be such a bad place to start.
Saw this on Instagram this morning, and I swear, sometimes it’s as if Rupi Kaur has tapped into my world and knows exactly what I need. This was one of those days.
“i will tell you about selfish people. even when they know they will hurt you they walk into your life to taste you because you are the type of being they don’t want to miss out on. you are too much shine not to be felt.”
This also makes me think of pedestals and those who will try to put you on them. The only thing that can happen is to fall.
“when they realize how real this is. how much of a storm you are and it hits them. that is when the cowardice sets in. that is when the person you thought they were is replaced by the sad reality of what they are.”
I have been selfish. I think we all are sometimes. But I do not believe I have ever done this to another person. It’s not worth gambling an entire being.
“isn’t it sad and funny how people have more guts these days to undress you with their fingers than they do to pick up the phone and call.”
Who are these people that can be so bold and yet so spineless at the same time?
I have known people like this, but never seen such an apt and lyrical description.
I have so much love and adoration for Rupi Kaur and her way with words. And yet – still! – I don’t have Milk and Honey. Soon! Soon. I’ve heard such beautiful things about it; I’m really looking forward to it.
Til next time.
I feel like it’s time
I’m just biding,
until you turn around and, finally,
figure it all out.
That you don’t really care for me
as you originally thought
Premonitions aren’t always right. But sometimes, your intuition knows more than you do. Listen.
you can’t rush the
No matter how much
you were at the point
where you could confidently
place your hand on his
already knowing every way
to make him
This was inspired by a Faith47 video piece I saw on Instagram. Check it out:
(find it here, if the above isn’t working)
I don’t know what you thought this was
but it was far from love.
My midnight confession was only a fact-
a simple admission,
not a heaping of meaning on anything more
than just a good feeling.
I’m no moon-eyed school girl
looking up at you
I’m a grown ass woman
who doesn’t need
I hope that you and your ego will be happy
As for me?
I’ll be just fine.
Just some things I never got to say. Some thoughts that came way too late.
I wish you all the best-
It was short, fun, and
you’re nice enough, but there’s still learning to do.
I don’t hold anything against you.
Just never forget, I’m gonna be just fine-
Already, I am.
Hell yeah! That felt good.
I want to show you who I am,
share with you,
let you in.
I want to get to know you,
to learn your heart and mind.
But there’s such a great distance
from wanting and beginning
And I don’t know where
“I could make you dinner” —
a light turned on behind your eyes,
and then, almost immediately, you seem
to change your mind.
Too much too soon, maybe,
after nearly 24 hours
spent in each others
But it’s a sweet thought,
idea. And heartening
you even thought of it at all.
We are both human
and none of this is perfect –
I was nervous and so were you.
I hope there is more to come